Things are changing. I am changing. I can feel the beginning of the end of another chapter unfolding. On one hand, I have become so comfortable here; I have forged a home and a tribe in an unfamiliar place and I am a better person for it. On the other hand, I realize that I will soon run out of lessons to learn here and I did not come all this way only to become stagnant in a new location.
We have already decided that next year will be our last in Turkey and every time I think about it, I am flooded with a wave of emotion. It will break my heart when I go. As much as it has driven me to the brink of insanity at times, this place will always be special to me. I have watched some friends come and go and others have children. I have made countless memories. I have experienced wonders beyond my wildest dreams and accomplished feats that didn’t seem possible. I have proven myself to myself.
Just a few years ago, I was constantly daydreaming about the future, hoping with all my heart that I could make this big thing happen. It has been good for me to learn to live in the present. I guess that has been the first symptom; lately, I’ve been thinking about the future again for the first time in a while.
My soul is ready for its next transformation.